Gosh

Gosh , took the quiz from facebook, and this is the result ! I cant believe it, this is one of the fav pic i like the most and i got it !ｈａｈａｈｈｈａａ．．．．ｏｌｄ　ｌｉｌ　ｂａｂｙ

I need more Sleeps

First week of hell ,

I have been sleeping for a few hours each day.

Almost fainted in the office coz being too sleepy most of the time, I even immuned towards the caffein already.

WHy don't i sleep now?

Don't want lar..好唔捨得d 時間啊， 訓左， 起身又返工， 放工返屋企， 食飯， 洗碗， 之後又訓覺， and it keeps go on and on and on. 時間係最珍貴既一樣野， 錢好多人將佢排0向第一， 但係，你式下用錢買d時間返黎，我話你勁啊！

It's just what i really want

Two more days to go for my real working life to get started. I just hate that so much.

I know what i really want, i wanna sing, i wanna perform on stage, not to become a star or a celebrity and stuffs. I just wanna do what i love the most. Although i can't sing that good, i wanna practice till i can really sing on stage. Even just to sing on the streets or cafes i am already 99.9% satisfied.

I　am kinda jealous on ah B and Kh, they can actually do what they really like for living. If you want me to sing 24 hours per day by paying me 1 buck also i don't mind seriously.

After watching Barbara's performance on the prom musical in Klpac last few days, i feel kinda regret, why din i join them. I got into the audition but why did i gave up? Transportation? i can always take a taxi. I missed it this time, a big one. It's what i really wan ,musical threatre. Shit, i am really outta my mind. I don't wanna miss such a chance anymore.

I wanna sing, i am practicing the guitar everyday and for me, i know there's bit of improvement. Not a big one, but still, an improvement. It is never too late to learn, instead of keep whinning about it.

Can i just not working? can i just spend my days learning and practicing guitar and singing? Is it possible.

In my entire life, i have always lost the sense of direction, i never know what i really want. But this time, i am sure, is 100% sure what exactly i wan , i wanna persue it.

I don't wanna sleep, i wanna fully utilise my last 2 days of being a total slacker. Zzzzz

3.31am.. 2 more days to go.

Must do-----> practice guitar after work, everyday !

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有時誤會係足夠令好多好白癡0既0野發生0架，

有d人睇0野睇表面， 后面係乜0野故事情節， 佢根本唔想理

有d人認爲佢係啱0既， 就無需理他人對及錯，

有d人覺得係0甘就係0甘， 無需要唸0甘多， 你死你0既事。

0甘樣， 對其他人來講， 係好唔公平0架， 簡直當人好似白痴0甘玩。

雖然我好多時候都無故及過人地0既感受， 但起碼我唔會0甘對人咯。

Am I gonna be lifeless soon?

Finished work and got home around 8++, i didnt do much things and now already 12++ , means i have to go to bed coz have to wake up early for work tomorrow.

I am so scare, why do we have to spend so much time on our job? I don't think a person's life is only about earning money, yes it's important, i have the determination to save more money so that i can have enough money for mom and dad to travel to overseas, but also at the time i don't wanna spend most of my time working, working and working days and nite.
Even though i will only start working full time next month, i can feel the terror of it already.I love my job of course, but i also hoping to get home early. Hahaha... feel like so childhish.

We've reach the diverted road in our life. Along the diverted road, there are many cabang cabangss that we will try to walk along and have a quick look on where it leads us to. Keep on trying, coz we'll never know what is right in front of us.

I am so tired, thinking about working full time soon, i feel like wanna cry. (abit lar), really. I am scare, when mom come from Fraser's, i will not have extra time to teman her in the afternoon. Unlike last time when i was still studying in college that time, mom came down, after my class, i take train back from the college, reach home around 2, 3pm, go Giant, Tesco to buy groceries stuffs with mom. Arrhhs ! why do we have to grow up?

I wish i can turn back time. Back to the basic, really. Back to where everything were still ordinary, back to the old days. Back to the day that my mind was not that complicated yet. I am just a simple person, i don't wan any changes, really.

今時今日0甘0既服務態度係唔得0架！！

Went to Bentong to visit Jermenn's aunty this afternoon. My heart feel really sour when i saw her laying on the bed, with her arms and leg got plastered sure to the injuries. She was kinda upset, her tears like pouring rain once she talk about how painful was it. Yes there's some nice doctors and nurses there, and not to mention, there's some rude nurses whom were not friendly at all. I wonder if they hate the job so much, why don't they just get themselves other job, there are plenty of other careers to choose from instead of throwing their temper on the patients. The only things that i can do is to ask the doctor how was her condition, and to chat with her abit, by comforting her, patients need to listen to alot of positive words instead of us showing our sympathize towards her. Yes i saw her smile when i tell her aiya, doctor said nth wan lar !! The only thing i can do is just talk to her, " aunty, don't worry lar, doctor said just urs is just normal injuries, very fast recover wan lar. Don't simply eat things ar !! Then ur wound will heal very fast!. I feel bad that she has to stay in the hospital, with bad service, and no air conditioning at all! Nurses wont care much for them, unless we're there asking them to help her to turn her body back and fourth so that her back will not grow any rashes. Else, i think they wouldnt even care even if she ask them to. Even when the head of Nurses commanded her to do so, i can see that the nurse face was 更本唔睇得0既！ 頂你個肺， 真係好想一拳sai 落佢塊面都。0甘唔甘願，就唔好撈喇笨！我之憎d無同情心0既人，你可以唔洗對人地好， 但係你唔可以對人地差！ 呢個是你的職責， 人地入得來， 就預0左有護士係可以照顧佢地0既.知唔知啊！如果個係你阿媽你又會唔會對佢0甘啊？

Human, has becoming so fragile. Just a simple few minutes will change our life. Unpredictable things will happen without warning us. Even though i am not that close with aunty, i really hope i can take care of her. Really, is sound so fake, but by putting myself in her shoe, tears are running in my heart. I bet every1 will feel the same way.

Oh Lord, i really hope that aunty will recover very very soon. Even though the wounds take times to heal, i hope she woundnt has to feel painful all the while. She's a kind hearted woman, i know that she'll be fine very very soon.


Miss S,

You Ripped it off yourself, when things get torn apart, That's the time u realise you wanted it to be perfect, right? It's kinda hard to mend a broken things, 針唔咭到肉唔知痛。對唔住， 原諒我有話直說。

恩

So Fast??

Miss S told me that she and his Mr.S going to 玩完,

She said she's not really sure bout it also.

但係感覺上就係無0甘容易補救囉，

有d野唔係話有就有， 話無就無0架，

如果真係0甘繼續落去， 真係老土d講一句， 長痛不如短痛， 唔好再瞞著佢喇，

0甘先公平0架嘛。

雖然係好唔捨得， 但係e + 你為有確實下自己係咪仲鍾意緊佢， 就係0甘簡單！！

唔鍾意咪分咯， 鍾意咪係咪一齊咯！

響我度講出呢番説話， 感覺上我好似好賤格0甘， 呢個係我個人想法0姐。

zzzZZZZZzZZ

悶！ 好鬼死悶， 就來爆喇！

又眼訓！！ 想返屋企啊， 邊個可以載我返啊！ 救命啊！

It's Real

Butterflies lepak on my stomach whole day long today, what am i really worrying about? I just feel really awful, hmm, a kind of feelings that i never felt before, keep asking myself, isnt it what i have always wanted and also sO worry about my medical report, really hope that there wont be any Helicobacter or any stupid bactera/deseases in my stomach, i am worrying about so many things, so worry. What can i do? I was the one who has been telling everyone, don't be worry too much or sad because of something unpleasant, cause there's always be sunshine after the rain, this is not words that we use to 'comfort' someone. Really, i know that if we really have faith on it, it will really become true, God has a better plan for every one of us, i know it, so no matter which direction i am heading towards, it will always lead me back to a perfect ending, i know it. EVen though i feel like my heart has begin to rip off.

Seven Pounds- Gonna wacth it all over again this Thurs..

給 S 小姐既一封信

S 小姐，

突然閒0甘感性， 係咪唔似我呢。 我只係想同你講，

長痛不如短痛。又或者你更本唔會痛。

你要明白回憶同埋習慣係唔等於感情0架。

係咪可以凴着回憶去代替感情而同佢繼續行埋落去0架？

0甘會唔會開心0架？係咪可以天長地久先？

其實好多Couple到0左某個階段都會覺得自己係咪一開頭就做錯決定0架。

呢個過渡期， 過到就更加恩愛， 而過唔到， 就係0甘先

所以係無人可以幫到你0架，部棋就要睇你自己點行落去喇。

恩

1st Day of April, it's good to become fooler each day, at least you'll be more happy

It's Tommy Leong Ka Kin's birthday today, tommy why were you born on April fool huh?When your mother was in labour pain and went to the hospital, did the doctor laugh at your mom and said, yaya, Happy April fool and sent her home? Or did your mom's water broke and the nurse said:' Gosh , those looks real, where did you bought it?'... Haha, i believe that the nurses and doctors will only believe that your mommy was really gonna give birth to you when they saw your tiny head with few fine hair pops out from your mom's vagina. Hahaha....okie, anyway, Tommy, for your knowledge, to show our sincerity, me and Sharon was planning to make a B'day card for you just now. Initially we planned to send a simple card with our drawings and pictures on it.

However, i saw on the internet that there's this cute baby picture and thought that wanna grab a picture of you from your facebook and paste it there.


This was suppose to be the picture dude, with your head on it. So i was thinking of croping your head off and replace it on the lion baby. And so I crop..and crop, and crop of course..... After sometime, I finally crop it 'nicely'. There's the result ...


Errr.. and sorry to say that it all ended here..hahahaha.. Yes yes yes ! i cant use the photo shop, hahah i only know how to crop it that's all, i tried many ways but not sure how to really paste it on the Lion Head , ahahaah, sorry! I already send you a normal ecard so pls check on ur mail ya. Hahaha, it's so funny, when i send the cut off head to sharon and she said

SherRen aMoi says: omg.. haha
Joo Ann says: haahahahahaha
SherRen aMoi says: k.. then?can u save in jpeg format?
Joo Ann says:hahahahahayeah can u see it now?
SherRen aMoi say: only his face..being cut.hmm..boleh lah.
Joo Ann says: hahahaha i dunno how to do, u see this i wanan put his head in this
SherRen aMoi says:
..........................
use paint?
Joo Ann say: i dunno how to cut the head with paint...

Anyway, it's 224am, i am so so sleepy and tired already , gonna work tomorrow morning,

Happy Birthday Tommy

&

Happy April Dumb Ass Everyone !

Very Good

親愛的丈夫:

經過我詳細的考慮, 我認為我還是離開你比較好. 我們一起己經七年了 , 七年來我自問盡力做一個好太太. 昨日我剛剛收到你公司的來電, 得知你己離職的消息. 老實說, 我對你的將來有一點擔憂 . 上星期, 我去剪了一個新髮型, 煮了一些你愛吃的, 買了套新的睡衣. 你回到家 , 餐飯吃了兩分鐘你就去看電視 , 看完電視就去睡覺, 看都不看我一眼. 我多渴望你可以抱我一下, 說一聲你愛我, 即使是騙我也好 . 無論如何, 我走了, 保重 註: 請不要找我. 我己經搬去同偉文一齊住新建立一個美好的生活.

你的前任太太

HOW HE REPLIED

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親愛的前任太太

收到妳的分手信, 我感到無限傷心. 不錯妳我在一起己經七年. 只不過你是否是一個好太太, 我內心郤有疑問 .

我去看電視只是因為我不想聽妳嘮叨, 不過似乎作用不大.

當然我上星期我留意到你剪短了頭髮. 不過我見到第一個印象覺得妳好似一個男人 . 妳要知道我不是講假話, 又不想傷妳心. 所以我沒講甚麼.

妳煮那餐晚餐確是花了很多心思 , 不過不知你記不記得, 還是妳煮飯時當我是偉文,我己經不吃豬肉十幾年了. 可能你太大意了 ,

妳那套睡衣上星期穿著時忘記除去價錢牌,上面寫著$4,999. 上星期偉文向我借了五千元, 我希望呢是一個巧合.

但無論如何, 我內心還是愛著妳的. 所以當我知道自己中了三億大樂透時 , 立即辭職買了兩張機票, 想著和妳去夏威夷渡假. 但當我回到家想跟妳說時,妳己經走了. 或者冥冥中總有主宰 , 妳我是無緣做夫妻. 今日我去律師事務所幫你問了如果離婚我要分多少錢給妳, 哪知律師看了妳寫給我的那封信 ,就說一分錢都不需要給. 那也好, 保重. 註 : 我不記得我是否有跟妳說過, 我這一生最好的朋友, 偉文 , 是一個變性人, 十年前原本是??個女人, 不過我希望呢對妳不會造成問題 .

妳的前任老公 .......

Yam Cha

Jer need to stay in the 'foh tang' for a few days and i gotta look out for the Organic shop for 2 days. Time flies, i came in around 930 this morning and walla ! is 3pm already. Eng Eng and Yao Meng came today, and ytd and i dare you all , come again tomorrow lar BAN! hahah, everything was kelam kabut at the beginning since i cant really handle the cashiers thingy yet. but now, it's just a snap of the fingers.

Was yam cha with Eng,Jack and Joe ytd night. Hmm...got feeling like we're getting older, now every1 is working already. Hahaha, yet the conversations still remain funny nomatter what we talk about. Tat's y i enjoying yam cha all this while, i dont mind to work full time in temaning ppl to 'yam cha' ..whahahah, erm, imagine one day when all of us out of topic...

我好想睇龍甘威啊！ 點解download 到甘慢架 ！！

Trend konon....

AHahahhaha, was chatting with ah eng and real funny it is ..the word 'Baby BUUu' and Baby or whatsoever has becoming a hot topic among us lately, and the ke'bimbo'an. Was blog hopping and there's a few blogs i viewed was 90% the same, aｔ one point i was wondering am i reading the same blog of the same person.

Hahah, liqour, babes, pimps, branded bags show off, drunk photos, group huggings, group kissing in the club, 2 girls kiss a girl, a guy hugging 3 girls, 4 girls showing off their LVs. Instead of spending my half of my 20's in the clubs most of the time hugging and kissing and camwhoring, i really prefer to spend time with friends yam cha, mamak, music cafes,or whereever, i rather spend my time searching for some nice food to eat everywhere. Yes clubbing is fun once in a while, i just feel like there will not be much interaction and communications between one and another. Anyway, i just really enjoying lepaking, yamchaing, eat eat eat , talking craps, wacthing dvd's in a big group and travelling. Am really scare that after i work, there will be no time for these.

Ｉ miss those old days where sher ren, tommy , lawrence , chun seng, diane ya all came to my house and we wacth dvd together, ps'ing together, ( gosh the Fatal Frame was so gan cheong, remember how i shout whenever i though there were ghost and my dad will came down and ask what happen. Remember all of guys were sitting on the floor. Ahh, i really miss those days even though i seldom mention it. You guys will stay overnight and the next day i cook maggie mee for you all remember?remember?Maggie mee with tauhu, fishballs, vege? pls dont forget. Remember we go dye out hair together? My hair looks like a watermelon, then when i came back the colour keep on coming off everyday when i wash my hair for almost 1 week.We went for the new year count down? It was years ago but it's still fresh in my mind. I remember there's once ya all came to my house, hahahah we're in my room taking pictures with my webcam, (not those hamsap wan of course), hahah it's best buddies photos, remember how chun seng hold the light and i will be the director, hahahaah. Like making porn movies,i keep on said 'bei dit feel ngo, bei dit feel ngo' we all laugh like shit.
Hahahaha, but i'm glad that we actually still hang out till today, so guys, after tommy back from the States, we all hang out gao gao again ya, as a group !

Sad

Dear Journal,

Tell me what should i do, i felt sorry for dad coz didnt stay at home and clean the house and cook for him recently. So today i asked koko to go fecth me and go home earlier so we can reach home earlier and dad will cook for us. Everything was fine when we're reachin home, dad is preparing the food and when i went into my room, i was pissed, pissed because dad actually tidy up my room. Werent i suppose to be grateful, but everytime my dad clean the house, he throws away almost everything, not junks, there are actually 'things' dad, not rubbish, although my room looks like a junk yard. I have been telling myself that i will now throw my temper on mom and dad anymore. But it's kinda hard to keep my feelings and the only thiings i have said accidently was：‘ why did u clean my room', and he said 'it's so dusty', i know i have to stay calm and cant yell, because dad do it for my own good. However, the setan got it all again this time, i said ;" it's my room, you don't have to come in. Dad said why i am talking like that', and i keep searching, searching for the bracelets( which i know it was suppose to be my fault, coz i didnt even know where did i kept it), i cant find it. I know other stuffs are missing too just that i have no idea what are there. I became irrational and went to the kicthen and wrap my hand with a plastic beg and keep dig into the rubbish beg. Next things i realise i cant find the negatives for the pictures i have taken when i was a baby. I was squatting in front of the rubbish beg with smelly garbages and slumpy overnite rice and stuffs. I know i did it to show dad that he wasnt suppose to throw my things away. Dad pissed when he saw me did that. I feel guilty, i always feel guilty, that is why i am suffocating, i wanna angry at a person so much, but cant because he did it because he loves me, but i am pissed, some of the things that meant so much to me are gone, my baby picture,that noone can ever get it back for me are gone, i am not 100% sure he throw it away, just that i feel really lost now. It might be meanindless for others but for me.....but again, dad clean my room because he said it's dusty, it's no good for me to sleep in the condition like that, BUT, some of the d handmade cards from my friends which means alot to me are in the paper beg already. I cant ..i really cant angry with dad because he didnt do that in purpose, but i am not happy really, the feelings is i wanna cry but i cant, i wana get real piss off, yes i cant but i cant show it to him.

I am sorry, you just asked me to go down and have my dinner and was asking about my driving license stuffs and wanted to pay for me. I know i am a little impolite, but i wanna say sorry, sorry for the irrationality and sorry for behaving like a 3 years old. I'm gonna promise to myself that i wanna become a person with relatively EQ so i will not hurt any1 around me. I feel ashamed that i am behaving like.

Self Reminder : Things which has already gone are gone, dont hurt any1 because once you grill a hole in a person heart, u cant never mearnt it back perfectly!

2nd Day of Chinese Moo Year

People tends to Have all sorts of bad Feelings at times :

Fears

Lost of Direction

Undecidable

Guilts

Regrets

Hatred ... and feel guilty about it later on

Scared.. really scared

Worried

Negativity just sucks away all of their positive energy

Feel afraid just because time flies...

Low Self Esteem

Dissatisfaction

Silence Anger + Dissatisfaction + Sadness


I am going for a good night sleep now....

War in Gaza

Why Does War Have to kill innocent people?

Saw on news kids got killed, injured and blood all over their body, parents crying , protecting their children, watching their own babies died, they have no choice but to let fate decide everything. 更本就無抉擇 ， 每一刻都係0甘恐怖， 只可以等待 death or if lucky enough to cheat on death. The most painful moment is that to watch their hopes their babies died in front of them, there are just kids, just babies for god sake, i totally dont get it, 點解 d 人可以0甘鉄石心腸 ， 殺人0吾 眨眼 ， 簡直就係 #*%！！ why cant they imagine themselves in that situation? 點解政府吾做 d 野 架？點解無啦啦要打仗架？ 得閑點解0吾揀去行善積福 定係0向屋企 O 多兩篤屎呢？ 呢 d 同殺人放火有乜分別啊？
雖然噢無乜完完全全既明白打仗既 purpose, 縂之， 濫殺無辜就 100 % 既 吾 啱 ！ ！ 真係吾講好啊， 一講就把幾火， 算喇 ！

呢排勁鐘意何韻詩嘅木紋， 真係好好聼啊 ！